Hot damn! Eyelashes!

I missed fake eyelashes. I love them. Oh man. 

Creeper picture. But I love fake eyelashes. Like no other. Trying to make them look better for my costume! I think I've done fairly well! It's been since 2008ish since I've done them. Not bad! 

Went to a haunted house today! It was fantastic. I literally just stared in the people's faces and got called ugly. Really, dickhead!? I'm not ugly. Eff off.  Only screamed once that I know of. Jumped a few times. It was the one at Thomas Family Farms in snohomish. It was ok other than someone saying I'm ugly. Eff off. I'm far cuter than what you could get, fuck face. The people had really bad breath. They were told not to touch us and I was told not to touch them... Sooo.... I had to get as humanly close as possible, without touching, and yelled in their faces. 

And I may show my costume tomorrow! After my mom and dad working on it. My dad mainly using staples and breaking the sewing machine. It was adorable though. My mom woke me up at 12:30 on a Friday night (I took Benadryl because the cat scratched me and I was reacting since I'm allergic to him) and told me she wasn't able to do the skirt that we had planned for and that we needed to go buy more tulle for it the next day! Yikes! There was barely any left the week before when I went!

Thankfully, I had woken up to the most beautiful skirt I had ever seen. I love it. I want to wear it daily. It's gorgeous. =]

Climb for grandma!

The American Lung Association is doing a climb up rainier tower and I've joined it. Within the last week, I've fundraised $95 and my team all together has $105! Holy cow! There's times where I think that people are shitty. Just not good at all. And with $105 raised in a week?!! I'm ecstatic! And people are fucking amazing! I'm more than thrilled. I can't believe it. People really are good. 

And I've been thinking about doing simple gelish polish for fundraising. It's something I'm not bad at. And I enjoy doing it. Anyone have experience with doing something like this?

Natural hair and skin care

It amazes me how natural hair and skin products work. I don't mean stuff from the grocery store. Oh heck no. I'm cheap. And poor. And those have chemicals in them that irritate my skin. 

Lately, I've been using an egg white mask on my face every once in a while. And coconut oil just about every day. You'd think that smothering your face with oil would cause breakouts. Nope. Not at all. It has anti fungal properties that help with acne and stuff. My skin is breaking out and bam. Smother it in coconut oil. Less than 12 hours later and it looks soooo better. 24 hours later, almost completely zit free. Love it. 

With my hair, I used to do just olive oil. Which worked decently. Then I tried just coconut oil. Worked even better. But tonight I figured I could mix coconut oil, olive oil, egg yolk and honey. Never used egg yolk or honey in my hair but eh. Figured its worth a try. This slimy concoction is running down my back. It's running down my boobs. It's gross. But I'm hoping it works! It's been in my hair for about 20 minutes. Going to TRY to keep it in all night but since it's so runny, I may not. And I'll do an update.

But after tonight's egg white facials (two of them. Didn't see a point in wasting eggs) and the coconut oil, my face feels tight but moisturized. 

But I have to keep the coconut oil and oils away from my eyelash extensions! Love them. And don't want to ruin them. 

Walking Dead and sometimes I don't care.

Sometimes it's a yoga pants, no makeup, bun, and wine in a box type of day. Nothing wrong. But nothing's particularly right. 

Thankfully I have an hdmi cord to watch streamed Walking Dead episodes from my computer to my tv. Far nicer than the teeny little computer screen. 

And oh man. What I would do for that house that the Greene's live in. That house is absolutely gorgeous. 

And how do these people have decent hair cuts and fairly cleanly shaven faces and no pit hair when they're living off of nothing? Haha it just doesn't make sense! On season 2, episode 7, I believe. And I'm loving it. 

I'm fricking happy!

It's been like two or three months of not being on conventional medication. I've been taking SAM-e. And for once, when I take it as told, it works

I'm fricking happy. No crying other than reading really emotional stuff or seeing emotional shows. Totally legit reason for crying. It's fantastic. Maybe it's the mix of working out and taking a more natural medication. I don't know. I'm also talking to someone a lot more who makes me happy as can be. But it feels fantastic. I'm happier than I've been in a looooong time. Probably even years. It's fantastic. 

I feel like I'm only partially relying on someone else to make me happy. Like maybe 5%. When in the past, it has been nearly 100%. It's all progress! 

I even stayed at my aunt and uncles house, alone with their dog, for a week. And I feel fantastic. I didn't have a panic attack. I didn't cry more than emotional shows. I felt fine. I felt more than fine. I kept the house clean and took care of a dog all by myself. I may not have been doing anything else (for example, work or school) but it's a start. 

By the way, fuck all of you who said I needed a highly sedative medication to make me happy. I'm doing this on my own. Those sedative medications may have made me sleep, but I slept 12-14 hours and still felt exhausted. I felt numb. I felt like my mother could shoot my leg and I'd feel no emotional attachment and just be mad about being shot. 

I've known I could do this on my own. I just needed someone else to tell me I could. That is literally all I needed. 

Maybe I have PTSD. Maybe I'm bipolar or depressed. Maybe I let my history bug me more than I should. 

But I'm stronger than I was yesterday. And tomorrow, I'll be even stronger. 

Quick Gelish post: Tiger Blossom

Just a quick post! I keep writing posts but don't feel like posting them yet. I'll post maybe tomorrow! 

I got this polish a couple months ago and have been wearing it off and on but haven't gotten around to posting anything about it. 

Unfortunately, it shrinks if it's put on too thick or if it sits too long before I cure it. 

Soooo I do 2-3 coats and flash cure (cure for ten seconds) after about 2 nails. Then go back and cure it fully after I'm done painting all of the nails. 

It's kind of a red-ish orange. Tiki-tiki laranga is more of a hunting orange and I think Orange Cream Dream is more of the pumpkin orange I'm looking for.