Did I ever think...?

Did I ever think I'd be 23, jobless and living at home with my parents? Nope. 

Did I ever think I'd take a break from school? Nope. 

Did I ever think that I'd apply to 25 jobs in a week? Nope. 

Do you really think it's a good idea to remind me that I feel like a worthless slob? It really isn't. I don't know why family and people ask if I have a job or "what you're doing with your life." Well, I'm trying to not strangle you right now for asking that. But other than that, I obviously just sit home and do nothing but masturbate all day while drinking wine and watching Housewives of Somewhere Better Than Here. Really? No. I try to do as much as I can around the house. I go and go tanning. Why? Not for any superficial reason. I don't care about being tan. It's the bright light. Laying down, closing my eyes and relaxing. Happy lights don't do anything for me. Actually, they kinda piss me off. I know what they're supposed to do but they don't do anything for me, so that makes me mad. I've tried putting it on a timer so I can wake up to it. It just aggravates me. I tried doing regular stuff but just being next to it. I just got annoyed. Maybe I'm weird. But it didn't do anything. 

I am, however, trying to do everything I can to make myself happy. Working out, when I can breathe, helps. But I'm sick right now and can't breathe very well. Tanning makes me happier. Taking SAM-e makes me happier. And it helps my back. It helps with joint pain. Hallelujah. 

I went to the library and got some books. I'm hoping that reading will help as well. I got some historical books and I also got some that are a little silly and embarrassing. So I'm hoping I can read the five books before they're due on the 13th! 

Oh, man. I need to blog more!!

It's been almost a month! A lot has happened! Well, I lie.
Not a ton has happened. I wore my halloween costume.

I gave Disney Princesses far more candy than they deserved.

Did my nails in accordance with my costume.

I actually got a letter saying that my dog beast is my emotional support creature!

So I took her to the hospital/old folks home my grandma is in and everyone loved her.

I learned that both she and I have an unhealthy fascination with ham.

I haven't lost a ton of weight. I've been sick for the last two weeks or so.

So I've been having a hard time breathing! Not conducive to working out!

But I haven't gained weight! Thankfully. Maybe a pound, literally.

I've figured out a crappy resume, since I've never had a legit job.

I've applied at 25 jobs since Sunday afternoon.

22 at the same company but different locations and different jobs.

If that doesn't scream, "Help me, I'm poor!" I don't know what does.


And it freaks me out that my face is now going to be associated with this blog... Hopefully I didn't seem too crazy before!