Change

"Life doesn't always turn out how you want it to. There's twists and turns and sometimes it knocks you on your ass but you just have to get up and keep going.
If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."
I wrote that on March 14, 2012 in the notes of my phone. I noticed that I didn't have a ton of space on my phone so I started going through stuff. I believe I had just broken up with the guy I had dated for a year and a half, was struggling with depression and I thought stuff was bad then! Haha I'd go back to the stress of then any day compared to the stress of stuff now!
It's amazing how when you give yourself time to think, how things change. For example, when I was in high school and my first few years of college, I was convinced I was fat. Uh, really? I was being ridiculous. At 107-120 pounds being 5'2", I was not fat. It's only once my body has changed and I've gained a lot of weight due to stress that I realize my body was pretty much perfect. Yes, I had stretch marks. But I wasn't fat.
But it does amaze me how much things change within a fairly short period of time.
I guess I'm trying to become more accepting of change, but change isn't easy to accept for me. At all. I hate it.
Since I was in 5th grade and read The Outsiders and Cherry Valance had a stingray. I looked it up and pretty much fell in love when I saw it. When I saw the release of the C7 Corvette, I was terrified. It was nothing like the old ones. No more signature round tail lights. It made me sad. But the more and more I look at it, I'm starting to like it more. When it comes out, I'll probably like it more. I guess it just takes me a long time to get used to any sort of changes.