It sucks. I wish I could be happy. And I wish I didn't have to ever fake a smile and pretend everything's ok. But someday I will be truly happy. Instead of just lying about things. I'm not do much ok. But I lie and say I am.
Today, I had group counseling. I actually like it. I don't hate it. I am opening up. And I'm telling people how much of a mess I am, which is extremely hard for me. But today she had clay to play with so I made a cat. I spent like 20 minutes on this cat. And then made eye contact with a guy who was new to the group. And I smashed the cat. While remaining to keep eye contact. He looked shocked. It cracked me up.
And I also found stuff for the fetus fiesta at Goodwill! Yay! Made me so happy. There's a jar that has jalapeños on it that I'll use as a vase, some jalapeño shaped dishes and a giant stuffed jalapeño for hot jalapeño! Like hot potato but with a giant pepper. It'll be grand. For less than $5. Win!
It will definitely be interesting to see how this all plays out. I'm kinda terrified. Haha. But it should be better than my sister's last baby shower I threw.
Right now, I'm missing this little fluffy beasty. I get to see her tomorrow! I love when she gets super excited to see me. It really makes my week. She loves me and wants to be around me as much as she can when I'm home. It's so sweet.
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