Fort Stevens

Does it ever feel like you're stuck in this dark place while you're looking out at this big, beautiful world? While you'd love to escape and explore this world, you realize that you can't.  At least not now. That is how my depression feels. It feels like I'm stuck. Like I'm never going to get out of this dark place. Never going to see this world. But I'm trying to remain optimistic. I want to see this amazing, bright world and I know I will someday. But when? No idea. How? I don't know. But I need to get out of this rut. The picture below influenced this post. It was taken at Fort Stevens in Oregon. It truly is beautiful and I love the old forts, especially the endicott period ones. I was inside a guard tower/commander station looking out at the main batteries. 

If you've grown up in the Pacific Northwest, you've probably heard the basic stuff we learned in Washington/Idaho/Oregon state history. However I learned nothing about any of the endicott period forts when I was in high school. In fact, never heard anything about them until I visited Fort Worden on a trip to Discovery Bay and fell in love. It's beautiful. Gorgeous even. These endicott period forts are the only things that make me truly happy. I can wander for hours. Literally. I took my dog to Fort Casey a few months ago, November 2nd to be exact, and met this guy from the Internet there. Probably not a good idea. But I wandered there got probably 2 hours before he got there. And Ziggy, my dog, just kept walking and loving it like no other. She even ran up to some couple to be loved and they freaked out because they didn't see me and thought she was a little ghosty dog. Hahahaha. But she even seems more relaxed and happy there too. She loved it. She just ran and was happy and explored everything. I just followed her. Then the guy called me saying he was off duty and was like 35 minutes away and asked if I still wanted to meet him. I met him, well Ziggy met him first by running up to him expecting loves, and that's how our story began. We've been officially together for almost two months. And he means the world to me. My pup loves him and snuggles him at night, she didn't even bark at him when she first met him (which is very odd for her) and even my moms dogs like him. Which is super strange. 

But for real. These forts are so relaxing. I spent about 3 hours exploring Fort Stevens. By myself. As there were a ton of families around me and I was just the creeper alone. Haha. But it was gorgeous. And far different than the forts in Washington. In Oregon, it seemed to have more rounded and modern architecture. They were built all within about 20 years but its amazing seeing the differences. For example, fort Stevens was more rounded. They had more circles and less squares. 

The guns were far different than the ones in Washington too. These were the disappearing guns on the main line at fort Stevens. 

These were the ones that were at fort Casey. Also disappearing. 

These places are soooo relaxing to me. More than anything. I'm me there. Even if its busy, I feel alone. I feel like I'm content. Well actually happy.

Something I had never seen before in any other Washington forts was the fireplaces. There were at least two brick fireplaces that I saw at fort Stevens. It was interesting. It makes sense that they had them but it didn't make sense why Washington ones didn't have them.